*Sunday, August 30, 2009 @3:23:00 PM♥
Miracle. Nothing better to do so post. Hah. I'm so retarded. Is that a good thing? Maybe more to the bad side. Seriously, i'm sorry, blog, for letting you die. I cant think of anything to post! Sian. Somebody, tell me a topic everyday -.- Blogger looks wierd so i think this post WILL come out wierd too. K, nevermind. Got back results. Science was worse, English was best i think. Only left Literature paper now. Hope overall standings will be OK. So the day before yesterday. There were happy things of course, but sad things were more. I sorted out my feelings liao. Lol. Stayed back for SC thing. I feel myself incompetent, a disappointment. Maybe i shouldn't be a SC after all. But i cant look back. As if my regrets list hasn't broke the 100-mark yet. When i'm not hyper, i'm emo. From 90% hyper last last week, this week it fell to a super pathetic 10%? Perhaps worse. When i'm emo, i'm not un-friendly alright. I just need someone to talk to me. I feel like a CMI-failure. Sian. Before the rehearsal, I dropped the flag base thingy. Metal, so it rang quite loudly when it dropped. Not my fault cos the thing was loose already, but i still think i'm at wrong. What if it broke? Sigh. I shouldn't think so much, i guess. Oh, and i also left my stapler in the hall. How dumb can i get? My poor stapler. Hope its still there on monday. (SORRY CYNTHIA HON! It wasn't about you alright. Don't angry!) I am VERY scared when people are angry or crying ._. Cos' i cant console people. Yesterday went to NATAS fair with family. I realised something.. Y'know, Singapore has many, many, many people. Okay, lame right. I got crashed, stepped, banged, everything you can think of by people. The crowds really.. WOAH. Then after that went to White Sands. Their theme also BE A SPORT same like our school. Coincidence. Went to eat lunch cum dinner. Couldn't eat much, which was something rare. Cos' for me, if i was starved for too long = lose my appetite. Sad case. After eating, went home to SLEEP. YAY, I LOVE EATING & SLEEPING. Today went to a temple to pray. I prayed for the same thing at about 20-plus places. I really wish that my prayer will come true. It has to. //Tomorrow is teacher's day celebration. //Tomorrow i will be going back to my primary school! Like, finally. Rofl. & //Tomorrow will be a better day. Yeah. I really, really, hope so that it will. (!)13 more days. Counting down. 12september09!
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*Saturday, August 15, 2009 @11:21:00 AM♥
hello. decided to post. for xinhui, saza, val, dini and ursisterdesister'sfren. who is ursisterdesister'sfren???
but i only got 5 minutes to churn out 1 post so i will just say some important stuffs.
i think im going to unprivate my blog. should i?? cos i promised my junior :x I LOVE YOU CLAUDIA K! lol. i also love GINA! heehee. we make a great team. mwahaha/
okay back to the topic. uhm well, these few days i learnt whats friendship. i think i now know how ______ felt that time. its not nice, seriously. so i decided to treat all my friends better i havent. im sorry if i did anything wrong to 1,2,3. and i want to thank alot of others who have stood by me. eg, pris, yichen, gina, cynthia, claudia, sofia, xueqi, ETCETCETC. i dont have time to list out. ps. just know that if you love me, i will love you back too! :D i also found out that trust is very important in friendships. if you dont trust your friend, you and her relationship cannot be counted close at all. i dont blame you for suspecting me, but it really hurts la. i couldnt believe it when i heard about it. but since the truth has come to light, i dont want to talk about it anymore. i now know who is true and whos not.
okay now talk about ytd. THANKS YICHEN! thanks for encouraging me when i felt like giving up basketball.. thanks for the motivation! :D i scored 8 points during yesterday's friendly match! haha. so happy. but mr teo say my last ball when i intercepted a pass and did a fast break to lay-up then score good nia. :( the others is luck or something -.- cos there was once i did 3 for 1dollar, meaning i tried shooting 3 times at one go but all miss :x
i was really dumb lor. left like 15 minutes to SC duty, i still tell mr teo i want play -.- crap sia. im such an idiot. so i played for 1 quarter which after then i "looked a mess", quoted my mdm riza. THANKS CLAUDIA for accompanying me. hahaha. i chionged to change and my face was super red like tomato. nice right ._. SC duty went quite smoothly i think. knew more about the other SCs, weixian was the only guy. o.o cynthia nice one. rofl. i think he is scared of me cos he dont dare talk to me sia :x am i scary? .. MANY parents came and proceeded to auditorium. we sneaked in and heard mr lim talking. ms tan the VP was really nice ah! (: i didnt understand much but i want to go TJC! (:
so end of my post. i hope all misunderstandings will be cleared. and, im really a type D, I and C person. my greatest fear is.. rejection. oh gosh, so when people dao me, i get hurt easily. sianxcxs. how leh? D: